I couldn't name it.

every time my heart beats rapidly, it's not butterflies.
then and there I forget how to breathe-
I tie a rope to catch it, because it has to be with me.
at 14, I never thought I would be here,-almost 21. I still can't believe it.
21;21 and time reminds me;- 2 months from now 21.

I have written to navigate my love and hate,-
yet I haven't mastered it.
being online kills me, but
it has always been the place where I just live.