Burnouts &Changes

Topic: burnouts & changes

Introduction:

             At recent times I have observed my peers and myself we tend to get bored easily or roll our eyes until the eye balls come out. It looks and feels common. But is it though? I guess. 

Burnouts? 

            It's this feeling " You have to wake up, go to college/work." Its not like you don't want to do the particular thing, it's the exhaustion . I am walking down the road and all of sudden, I have a fear of doubt- if I have locked my room and these thoughts take a wind to the time i had wild fun with my ex-bestfriends to fear of not doing the job I have been assigned properly. I don't know who assigned the things that I am doing. Like waking up, brushing ,showering , greeting people, going out  so on. But i would rather rot in my bed forgetting the all these imagining me walking down the road, but except I am not walking down that road I am just thinking. 

I think i feel all this because of changes recently or you can say 2 years, i haven't been able to process that. It's like swallow a small piece of food but you have a throat pain. 

If you ask experts they believe in sudden changes in an individual life or the surrounding of an individual causes all this changes. 

Change isn't completely a bad thing, it's complicated. Change happens too quick or too slow. Everything that i see i feel like it's two extremes. I think you might agree with me or you may have your own theory. 

For instance I have fear of fears. It's caused because of my burnouts and the changes I can't process in the little pot called my brain. Overtime its all this, isn't it? The one thing I dont have fear of fears is probably when I write. Its like what else have i got to loose. So it's fine. 

Conclusion:

We have our comfort zone, likes, dislikes and what not. I think writing/ thinking about this leads to questions I didn't know existed inside my head. When you read this you may relate to it. If you relate I wanna hear about how it feels from your perspective. 

It's interesting to read in two or more different fonts. At least I think.