death, where are you?

 death, far yet near

time goes by

tomorrow became uncertain

now, all I have is you

growing old looks like a luscious sweet yet bitter

waking up not next to you sweats in my body

dreaming you would knock on my door like a bee

I manipulated to think you needed me as much as I do

my dreams became a nightmare

nothing feels unique

words I speak feel nothing 

asking myself if I am the snake

venom slithering through my soul.